I'll be the change that the world wants to see: January 2010

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

It starts and ends with you

~ When love is lost,
do not bow your head in sadness;
instead keep your head up high and
gaze into heaven for that is where
your broken heart has been sent to heal ~

*****

*cries* can someone comfort me?

I really need some one to do so

I'm really sad now

Disappointment~

[sigh] i don't know what to do

it always my fault huh?

till TODAY! even after things HAD happened

you are still blaming me?

is it completely my fault??

is it always 1 party's fault???

think it yourself!

I wish my friends were here

each time I shed tears

i may seemed tough outside

but... *fake smile* I'm so not!

I wish y'all will be here to cheer me up

it not that easy ya know!

be it~

be it! if you wanna continue to be like that

I've got nothing more

TO SAY!

I've been crying

for the past few days

I just can't stop

and IDK why....

i really need y'all now!

seriously!

it'll be a lot better if we could like...

go out! shopping! karaoke! swimming!

or whatever it is!

i dun mind.

so long y'all are with me and I'm not thinking bout' it

really wanna go out or somewhere

that can give me a break

it is -THE DEEPEST SCAR-

that will always remain in my heart

and it's not very easy to get through it

I'll never forget. how u treat me. I'll ALWAYS remember!

*CRY*

*****

~ Count the garden by the flowers,
never by the leaves that fall;
Count your life with smiles
And not the tears that rolls ~

I don't miss him, I miss who i thought he was

~ A break up is like a broken mirror.
It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself to fix it.
Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you,
but you meant nothing to him ~

*****

='( people used to say

"if some one you love hurts you, cry a river, build a bridge and get over it

but i wonder, how long will i take to build that bridge?

it may sounds easy, but in reality

IT'S SO NOT!

sigh~ I'm lost right now.

feeling so sad and empty

how nice if i could wish upon a star that shines the BRIGHTEST at night

and the next day, it just came true.

there's no such things as 'WISH COME TRUE'

maybe there is..... IN FAIRY TALES

it was such a disastrous! seriously

plans were working well...

until this day >>> 26th of January 2010

it'll never be forgotten

as it is not easy to do so.

there's no one to blame

but MYSELF

for being such gullible girl

i guess life must still go on

although EVERYTHING has CHANGED UP SIDE DOWN~

I once promised my friends that

I would never shed a single tear when it really happens

but in the end. I DID.

Not just A single tear.

But a bucket of tears

i can't take it anymore!

my eyes are gonna BURST

for i've cried for the pass 3 days!

*crying*

*****

~ No matter who broke your heart,
or how long it takes to heal,
you'll never get through it without your friends ~

My heart is always meant to be broken

~ Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult. ~

******

hey... =) im sorry readers

i've not been updating my blog for YEARS!! arggh*

some problems.. sigh! i bet some of my frenz knows it

anyways, since i've not been blogging for LONG, so...

there are many things HAPPENED!

and yeah! HapPeNED! both, goods and bads

let me just glance through ONCE MORE!

i joined choral speaking. we're still under autidioning. so yeah

it was SUPERB fun! with jaslyn and siew yi there... EVEN FUN-er.hahah nvmmind my language.

LOL it is on purpose. so yeah *winks*

i was late to skl on SOME fine day. [i think it was on the last friday]

oh oh oh!! merentas desa!! yeah!! hahah

i got top 20. awww..! so sad. just few placing away from that MEDAL!! ='(

actually i dint plan to EVEN run for it. but i was forced to come to lead em' on warm ups.

so then i just decided to RUN! since i'm already there, in skl! hahah

top 15 for NEXT YEAR! gotta train train TRAIN! GAMBATEH!!

ytd's interact club was EXCITED. played some games. dodgeball was one of it

too bad GURLS oni get to play it O-N-C-E!! how sad is that huh?

my couzy just came back from UK last week. COOL HUH!

but he's going back after CNY!.... awww so SAD!

cheer prac! yeah. not to be forgotten. heh heh. cheer prac on mon was AWESOME yet TIRED

manage to do HANDSPRING but NOT in gym. *cry* ='( woooOOoo

hmm.. that's about it though. (if i never left out any)

so yeah... will update, SOON! whenever i can!

mood : sad + emo + heart ache + hurt

Saturday, January 16, 2010

I'm weak!

~ Slap me in the face and say

''wake up girl''!

It's not worth crying about it

because it doesn't work ~

*****

argh~ today's cheer prac and gym class was TIRING!!!

:'( i really wanna cry dy la! super tired...

cheer prac in the morning... i was so DEPRESSED! SAD! DOWN!

NOT FEELING WELL!

but then after that when all the stunts i did

with jiayann jenny and weiwen

LOL

i became so SEMANGAT and enthusiastic

and I was feeling A LOT better and I was very hyper

LOL yea.. LIB EXT! yeah! high 5 jenny! hahah

but the worst part during cheer prac was

DOING JUMPS! and HIGH KICKS!

argh.. I WAS SO SO FREAKING TIRED!

but still gotta do! haih... im tired

then went home.. bath, at my lunch

S-L-E-E-P-!!

slept from 2pm till 420pm then str8 went to gym class

started at 5pm till 630pm

LOL gym was INDEED tiring too....

did many new things that we NEVER do before

LOL and continued with JUMPS! HANDSTAND! 1 minute!!! wth??

dam friggin' tired...

GUesS what ahshen said to me when we were doing strength work?

"florence, why nowadays u so weak de? not like de 'last time' florence worh..."

i was like 'o.o'

*speechless*

haih~ im really exhausted larh today...

and DISAPPOINTED on myself ='(

=(

i'm tired. really tired.

off to sleep now! nights ppl!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Negotiate with confidence, or don't

~I'm tired.

Sometimes, I choose to hide it because

I don't want you to

Feel bad or sorry for me

I don't like to be sympathised

I'm weak inside, but

Not the OUTSIDE~

******

ACE tuition was AWESOME! GREAT!

LOL beyond words can describe.

Had loads of fun there with my two B!TCH babes.

Anyways, gotta start cracking my brain to think of that

"MIME ROLE PLAY" with jaslyn. yeah!

Luckily i was paired up with her! *pheww*

okay... CUT THE TUITION PART

let see... hmm nothing really much happened this whole week

accept for the STUPID-USELESS-POINTLESS

PROGRAM MAJU DIRI (PMD)

haih... makes me SLEEP in the dewan! wth?? o.o

dam friggin' bored! (except for the games and chicken dance part)

LOL!

yeah... having a headache doing my JOB as a TREASURER for CHEERLEADING

money? argH! lotsa probs and questions!

haih.. help? anyone??

its sooOOO confusing.

JIAYANN!!! U GOTTA REALLY HELP ME!

now i FINALLY know why yenlin cried last time!

cuz i really wanna CRY now! :'(

having cheer meeting, librarian duty and piano lesson tomorrow!

:( why is everything coming at the same time???

gtg now..

p/s : school was indeed FUN!

p/ss : its already 6 months!! **cheers**

p/sss : money problem?!! argH!