over and over again~~

It's so easy
to think about love
to talk about love
to wish for love
but it is not always easy to recognize love
even when we hold it
in our hands

It is with true love
as it is with ghosts
everyone talk about it
but few have seen it....

a deep scar

I THOUGHT...
I THOUGHT...
I THOUGHT...
I THOUGHT...

MAYBE I SHOULD JUST LISTEN TO MY DAD AND BRO
FOR STOP BEING SO THOUGHTFUL
FOR STOP BEING SO NAIVE
FOR STOP BEING SO CHILDISH

IT IS VERY HEART-ACHE TO 'THOUGHT' THINGS WHICH DO NOT TURN OUT THE WAY U THINK IT SHOULD BE

IT IS VERY HEART-BREAKING TO 'THOUGHT' THINGS WHICH APPEAR TO BE A DISAPPOINTMENT

IT IS VERY HEART-CRASHING TO 'THOUGHT' THINGS WHICH DON'T EXIST BUT U THINK IT IS

I THOUGHT...
I THOUGHT...
I THOUGHT...
I THOUGHT...

IT WAS A DEEP SCAR ON MY HEART
IT WAS LIKE A SLASH!!
IT WAS PAINFUL
IT WAS HURTING

FINE~!!! IM SUPER ANGRY AND EMO NOW...

AND I WILL STOP BEING A FOOL WHO IS SO THOUGHTFUL

I WONT ANYMORE!!!

I'VE LEARNT MY LESSON FOR NOT BEING SO NAIVE

TAT'S IT!!! IM OVER IT~

I HATE IT~

:'( *sobx***cries***:'(

i don't know what should i put

Hey guys ;D

i'm in singapore right now, enjoying every bit of it :)

somehow we always have a problem:

that is finding car keys or house keys, as we're living with most people who are OLD.

Before we leave the house, it'll be like

"where's the car key? I thought it's with you. No, i gave it to you.'' haha, old people

today, we went to church, New Creation Church ;D

Pastor Joseph Prince preached, funny man! laughed like a mad woman!

After church and lunch and all, my cousins, grandpa plus my uncle, aunty and i went back home. Family time, more like cousins time ;) then everybody decided to use our own laptops till now in ONE room!

Woohoo, i bought another Cheer You Up t-shirt for $19 =) my aunty paid for it though, 'thanks aunty'.

Anyway, tomorrow, my first uncle aunty and their two friend plus one of my cousins are going back home tomorrow. And after they leave, we're gonna have Party All Night Long! haha, we're gonna plan our own activities for this week and we're going to go alone, no ADULTS! yea man..

We still haven't eaten our dinner yet though, we'll be eating outside by ourselves plus my uncle. Others went shopping in Tampines, going out in a while though!

uncle just came in saying "10minutes ar then we're going, 10 minutes''!

ok that's it for now,

ciao people.

1st day in singapore~

the day b4 i left, i slept around 12am. practically i wasn't sleeping at all~ AT ALL.

i juz cant fall asleep and i was awake the whole night till my mom woke me up around 4am as we're leaving at 5am!!!!

so friggin' early~~

well, we drove 2 cars down to singapore cuz there are many of us going to singapore

my couz, my aunts, my grandpa, and some other church friendsss....

there are like 12 of us, all staying in a house which only has 3 rooms.... lol

imagine tat?!?! we squeezed in the room when sleeping

we arrived singapore around 12pm++, came into the house and rest like 30 mins

then go out hav lunch and shopping

argh~~ i was so freaking tired cuz i din sleep for the whole night

then i was like, keep telling my aunt :

"aiyo, i wanna go home and sleep... i very tired!! can we not shop today but tomoro?? i think im gonna faint here~"

LOL weyyy~

after shopping came back home around 7pm... rest for like 15 mins

GO OUT AGAIN!!!!!! sobxx*** :'(

go out eat dinner~ haih... i was so so so so so tired d some more hav to WALK to go hav dinner

haiyo... well, came back d but still come online

lol. 'weirdo' huh??

it was a super tired day for me...=_='

tmr early morning gotta go church so yea...

im off now ^^

study kills~ cheer rules

sejarah text-book~ bab 7, driving me crazy

forcing myself to STUDY STUDY STUDY, but it ain't working =[

juz finish monthly test today. it was juz a 'two-days-exam'... sounded easy but wasnt cuz 5 subs per day... haha, quite hard though...

well, my mood wasn't ready for exams thats why im having difficulties in concentrating to study. i spent 1 full-day juz to study sejarah bab 7. 1 FULL-DAY... but wasnt tat good in it and i couldn't remember a single thing tat i read =[ . gotta spend another few more days to study tat friggin sejarah~ argh!!

last paper was science, checked answers with siew yi and jaslyn after teacher collected the papers, found out that i did many minor minor minor MISTAKES!!!! aaaaaahhhh~~ 1 question 4 marks weih.... :'( **disappointed***

neways, life still goes on. farewell to SAMANTHA. she went to australia on tuesday night. well, she came to skl on tuesday when we were having exams for the very last time before she leaves, everyone hugged her. GUESS WAT?!?! mayyean burst into tears..... @.@ aaawww... so emotional, i was so close... juz so close... tat close to cry too but i didnt... haha, i thought i would. teehee!!!

anyways, bye samantha, always keep in touch even though u're at Adelaide ^^

Goodbyes are not forever.
Goodbyes are not the end.
They simply mean I'll miss you
Until we meet again!

siew yi, jaslyn, xing yi and I made samantha a farewell gift. haha, juz before she leaves we gave her... it was kinda like a last minute planning and we finished the whole thing only in 3 days... or maybe less than tat if we were to count every single minute and second. haha.... we even skipped our lunch on one of the days tat makes all of us like hungry ghost!!! even our maths teacher give us a 'weirdo-look'... haha, the bell rung and we rushed down, yea RUSHED down for food as if we were starving for 3 days.... funny huh?? tat's us trying to finish it before she leaves. hope she'll appreciate it though... teehee~!! we did 'ss' too... siew yi was like hyper and she took my phone to capture picturess... hahah


xing yi~~
lols~!


siew yi!!!! LOL


oohww.... monday 14th sept was a very special day for me... haha, and he remembered too~~!!! i was SUPER happie when he 'sms-ed' late night 12am sharp~~ he even got me a very very very expensive gift.... and i really really really lurve it!!! thanks dear~!! muaxxxx



it is a ROXY purse.... damn freaking nice~!!! aaaahhhhh!!! i lurve it so so so much... thank you dear~~love u loads~ hahah

saw pn chen today and weiwen asked about cheer prac.... it have been stopped for like... a month. so pn chen said if there isn't anymore H1N1 cases during these raya hols, prac may be resumed as usual... yeah!!! can't wait... haha ^^

oh yea, this friday no skl... will be going to singapore this sat till the next sat... 1 whole week. heehee, no worries, i'll bring my laptop along... haha

p/s : weiwen, i owe u a birthday present....
p/s : thank you so so so much for tat purse... i really really lurve it... thank eeeuuuuU!!!! muaxxx

exams

her pet broooothaaa agn hahar! she having exam soon so that she cant blog (thats what she said to me) hahars errr i hope that this year lick hung's dinner wont be crush on my school exams mann or else i cannot go >< haihs *praying* duhh her blog looks like damn little people viewing weyh have to promote d LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahrs joking heh ! chaoo gtg ;D
-mood: super duper happy -

;D

hey world ;D im this blog's owner's pet brothaaaa LOL!!! she trusted me and call me update for her ;P and i did it now (: hrm where should i start from? errr.. ohh i just have a chat with florence .. lols our conversation was just bored lols no topic to chat about hahar* how pity is it* >< sengzhao_95@hotmail.com mua email (: hahar http://sengzhaolovesyou.blogspot.com is mua blog (: but its privated .. intersting have a look for it just pm me at msn *weeeee*

i guess its over~

i'm feeling seriously happie today

i guess it is over~

today after skl jas, siew and xing yi came my house upon LAST MINUTE arrangement

b'cuz we were to give some one a special surprise

but hope tat person wud cherish it as we work our butts off juz to finish it within 3 days

well, siew's dad fetched us to BIG BOOKSHOP once skl's ended

went there to buy materials and off to my house

rushing to do it so tat we can finish it in time

after tat, i think they hype-d up and started ss-ing with my phone

LOL LOL LOL LOL

was dam freaking funny in my house

they're coming again tmr after skl

so *FINGERS CROSSED** wish us luck so tat we can finish it in time and hand it to that person

^^ cant wait....

p/s : i miss him so much....

i knew something new~ im lucky to be one

sat ( 5/9/09 )

woke up early in the morning to teman steph go wudo.

well it wasnt a wrong choice to wake up tat early to go skl for activities cuz i learnt many new technique there.

thank God i still remember some despite such long time never attend practises... haha

wudo class ended and steph parents offered to fetch me back since it is so near, so yea... thanks stephy!!

after tat went chinese tuition, argH~ bored.

then i str8 away went to gym.. haha yeah~! lurve it. we did stunts!!! very long didnt do in gym since cheer 09 ended. =]

next was weiwen's 13th birthday partay~~ haha jinee fetched me, john, yiek and jiahui there... thanks jinee~!!

we had LOADS of fun there... bbq-ing, playing, ss-ing. haha we went to the nearby park too!!

yea, and i started the 'cream-fight' lol. it was my idea to put cream on ppl's face..

went back home was freaking tired tat i juz lay on my bed and fell asleep after 3 mins... cool huh?? lol

sun ( 6/9/09 )

went KLCC with parents and lil sis. wat else?? shoppings... haha ;D

during my journey back home, my parents told me tat we're going on a vacation to CHIANG MAI and they had already booked the tour package.

i was like WOW!!! nice one, the best part is we're going with my grandparents too.

haha it must be real fun this year.

but the date isnt confirm yet cuz we needa compromise with my bro's uni's hols and mine... so yea.

and i juz booked my flight ticket to singapore on the 19th till 26th of sept.. during HARI RAYA hols...

will be going with 3 couziez... haha, gonna have loads of fun there... wheee~~

dun worry, i'll 100% bring my laptop along....

p/s : i love you~

hols are almost over~

wat?!?! a week of hols has came to an end?? uuuhhhh~ time flies!! going back to school on tuesday and gotta start studying my butts off for the coming exams... GOSH~! neways, juz came back from Ipoh and Genting yesterday.... had lotsa fun in Genting cuz my couz ponteng school juz to teman me in Genting. Thanks honey~ lurve you muaxx!! lol, almost lost my phone there. so as my couz. dam scary lucky we noticed it and ran back to ask around the ppl there... phew~ thank God we found it back... here's some pics i took in Ipoh and Genting. =]

















=]


lol??


yea yea... the cert the cert... haha meaningful experience

OMG~! our hair!! all tangled up after that 'fly'... dam pain ya know when combing my hair, in fact lotsa hair dropped...


weird suit... but it was fun flying.. the instructor was awesome friendly~


we went to try on the skl venture~ like flying... haha we even got certs for tat... but its kinda exp la... oh wells, lifetime memories... so why not??


a roller coaster ride in outdoor themepark~


say 'NO' to H1N1... haha couz idea


my one and only sister... LOVE HER always


you were always there when i looked back~


=] outdoor theme park... the wind there is cold and strong~wheee


in da hotel>>> First World Hotel


we took the cable car up to Genting cuz mom say too dangerous to drive up... RM 10 per pax, 2 ways


couz.. muaxxxx~!!!





lol~ playing basketball... HAHA dam funny weih~


titanic?? wakakkakak!!!


cheating huh?? we put my sis in there so tat we can earn more coupons... LOL

VLC cheer 2009

tagged!!

Tagged by stephy~

1.Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
cheek and forehead i guess....


2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING ?
sleepy~ cuz i needa wake up like around 6am plus to go Ipoh~ argh tired =.=

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH ?
my cousin sister... when we were in genting ytd =]

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED ?
boohoo~!! wat do u think??? i dun think so... :)


5. Will you ever donate BLOOD ?
yeap~ not a second doubt


6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX ?
yeap~ why not?


7. Do you want someone to be DEAD ?
obviously...... NOT!


8. What does your last text message SAY?
" I miss you "

9. What are you thinking about right NOW ?
erm.... him??


1o. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW ?
totally yeap!!!


11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
12am ++ was chatting in msn


12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
Philippines


13. Is someone on your mind right NOW ?
Yeap.;)

14. Who was the last person who text YOU ?
John Tan

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz .

1. Jia Hui
2. Wei Wen
3. Walter
4. Jia Yann
5. Chui Pin
6.Melvin
7. Jin Ee
8. Ng Jia Yi
9. Zi Ning
10. Qian Hui

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship WITH ?
she's still single if im not mistaken... haha

16. Is no.3 a male or a FEMALE ?
Male

17. If no.7 and no.1 get TOGETHER , would it be a good ?
tat will definately wont happen cuz no. 1 is TAKEN!!

18. What is no.1 studying?
huh???

19. When was the last time you chatted with THEM ?
Couldn't remember... different places different time... so yea

20. IS no.4 SINGLE ?
yeap... single and available

21. Say something about no.2.
gorgeous, Sweet, Nice, Friendly, Hyper, crazy, bakes cakes and cookies and its total ** yum yum^^** she treats her frenz truly

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being TOGETHER ?
Not gonna happen cuz they are both guys~ ^^

23. Describe no.9
a great fren of mine... lurve her much...

24 . What will you do if no.6 and no.7 FIGHT ?
I dont think they will bcuz they dont even know each other.=)

25 . Do you like no.8 ?
yeap... as in frenz, yea... hhahaha




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DONE!! Wheeeee
Y

u were... but aren't for now :(

u've changed a lot
i dont know exactly how to say
but i can see tat u've really really changed
yeap, a lot!! a whole lot...

i remember when we were strangers to each other
slowly became frenz
and then close frenz
ended up BEST FRENZ

we were very very close
i told you everything about me and my life
and you were very patient to listen
all my mumbles and grumbles

you treated my like your sister
you were great to me, and yes always~
you were always there when i needed comforts or some one to talk to
you were always watching my back
you were very apologetic whenever i got emo or angry
you were always cheering me up when im down
you were always saying "1...2...3!!! throw it all away" when im sad
you were kind to me
you were always the one doing things together with me
we always go 'yamcha' together

but it seems like these are all over
ever since "............." [dun wanna mention it here]
you treated me differently
you've changed~

you no longer treat me like you sister
you no longer are great to me
you no longer comfort or talk to me
you no longer watch my back
you no longer apologize even though its your fault
you always make decisions without caring or thinking of other's feeling especially me
yea, and you no longer treat me as your best fren

i thought u were soft
but im wrong~
you scolded me when i was juz trying to care for you
you never even bother to apologize when u did wrong and when i was dam angry
you juz never care~

i dont know wats changing u
perhaps its bcuz u got gf ed?
perhaps you juz never take our friendship seriously?
perhaps i was wrong at the first place for treating u as my very very best fren
i didnt like it at all.... AT ALL~

i dont know
i juz hav the feeling tat
i cant count on u anymore
i cant trust u
i cant talk to you as best frenz anymore
i cant find you as best frenz when im sad or emo or angry or happy or excited...
i cant share with youeverything as best frenz

i really hope you'll prove me wrong one day~

ups and downs, cheer life and school life~ total different

haha.. ss to kill boredom when waiting esther to come fetch me to gym~ wheeee


haha... managed to do handstand bridge*** can stand up too~~ aaahhhh lol
backbone and wrist pain sial!!!


gym class always keeps me happie~ somehow i tend to release my all my stress and forgot every single sad things... tats why i lurve goin gym~ its like my fav place to go~

OMG~! my blog is so dam friggin' D-E-A-D~! lol... was too busy and lazy lately to update it.. sorry readers... muaxxx!!! hmm.. where to start from??? so many things happened recently.. ups and downs, sad and happie, boring and fun~ oh wells...

lol, juz came back from gym class... was very happie cuz i finally can do HANDSTAND BRIDGE ** can stand up wan** lol.. yea, i can do but cant stand bak up... then weiwen, mel cheong, esther and I keep on doing it over and over again.... finally i stood up~! i was freaking happie and i was shouting in the gym like crazy woman!!! too bad mr chong said he din see... bluek =_=' oh well... i did again lu for him to see... heh heh... can stand wor~ dam happie!!!! aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh BOO!!! yea... all these achievements come with hard work and determination... yupp, i hurt my wrist for doing the 'handstand bridge' thing.. haha lol but i find it worthful for i manage to do a perfect handstand bridge ( with a very satisfied and confident look ^.^ ) .. then came bak home mom bought some ramadan buka puasa food.. *yum yum* ^_^

*sigh* had a quarrel with frenz and al,l so yea.... wish me luk in handling it~ it is juz a deep misunderstanding... :) oh wells... life always have ups and downs... i'll juz pray to God so tat one day everything's gonna be back as before =) well, cheer prac for today was cancelled... so as the parents meeting due to the serious h1n1 disease~ haih... miss CHEER ! i miss my cheer coaches>> chee wei, jun kang, cheng choo and alynna~ I MISS UUUU!!! i wanna continue cheer prac~ bluek!!!

yea... and bout my chatbox.. haha, lols i dun really take it seriously though... its okay la my frenz ... juz let them say anything they wan and eventually they'll be fed up and juz shut their friggin mouth up and get the hell out of my blog.... *sorry im abit harsh here** so there's no need to waste time to defend me in my cbox... i dun really mind cuz i know when they get bored they'll juz give up and wont write anything... so juz ignore them...=)

whee... monday goin' genting till tuesday and wednesday till friday will be in ipoh~ so yea, im sorry if i cant go outing or yamcha wif u guys... sorry.. haha, u all juz go la... and have fun~ hehe, i'll join u guys after im bak.... *if my mom let la* i've been going out too often and my parents aren't fine with it ... so yea...

p/s: i miss him lots -.-'

examz are over~!

hey, finally my examz are over then only i can come online... haha, miss my laptop so much!!! hmm...nothing much though, examz>>> studies>>> wat else?? cracked my head and studied at the eleventh hour!!! haha, dunno la, i cant really concentrate on my studies nowadays... my mind is always about cheer and ... and ... yea... haha~!! neways, today i went to ask my sejarah teacher wat's my sejarah marks.... lucky me i got 88/100 THANK GOD~!!! lol, i juz finished studied sejarah 1 day b4 the exam... phew... haha

hmm... dad not around for 2 weeks!!! i MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!! dad went to vietnam to like... sort of training ppl yea... miss him miss him!!! yesterday night was... i can say awful?!?!?? emo?!?!? watever la... was really really hurt.... neways, forget bout it... tomoro weiwen and jiayann will be cuming to my house... haha cuz i dun wanna go skl so early... yea, then we going yamcha wit weijun yiek john and jiahui....:) hahaa...

nothing much to write liao la... signing off soon~ oh yea!! i juz remembered!!! today i went skl early so i hang out wit my frenz luu... haha, we ate like SO MANY bowls of ice kacang weih... haha, eat until half way, no more condensed milk d, go add some more.... haha jin ee's idea though.... smart smart** lol dam funny weih~~ haha

kays, gtg.... chaozzz!!!!!